#nsnation struggling w motivation this week

I have been on Nutrisystem for quite a while now. Since November actually. I have been dreading this post because I didn't want to tell you that I have gained some of the weight back. It's not the Nutrisystem (I don't think) but probably more my addiction to coffee and most likely, this: LoE. I am currently needing to lose 20lbs. I am at a Healthy BMI of 24, but I am borderline overweight and I feel "chunky" . With swimsuit season coming up I have got to buckle down and take this dieting and working out more seriously. If I lose 22 lbs I will weigh 130. That would be nice.

I have always ballooned up and down, from 125 to 165, from age 18 to now, 28. It's not good for my body and I know it. I am by no means fat- just uncomfortable in my own skin. Nothing is sexier than a curvy woman, but some of us carry our curves different. It's ok not to be a stick. I know it. But at the same time being voluptuous is wonderful. Some women are sexy in their own skin, and perhaps that's something I need to work on inside myself. When the Nutrisystem food goes I will miss it. I have gotten used to not cooking. While I am supposed to add fresh items in- I do on occasion, but to be honest- it's easier not to. The convenience of Nutrisystem will be missed, but not entirely.

Were I to pay for my Nutrisystem it would total around 400$ a month. I am not knocking Nutrisystem, but with coupons, our normal monthly grocery bill for my family of four shopping at a military commissary (which is much cheaper than even at Walmart by the way..) is 400$ for us four in a month. I wouldn't be able to afford to be on Nutrisystem. I have come to love the omelettes, and the frozen pocket sandwiches. I will miss Nutrisystem. After this is over- I want to try to cut out carbs most all of them. I have never attempted it before because  love pasta, bread and sugar. I would have to say goodbye to my coffee.

And I know what you are thinking.. coffee? Can't she use Fat Free creamer, or sugar free, or sugar substitutes, or drink it black? Believe me I have tried.. it is just not the same. I have got to take this more seriously and buckle down. I need so badly to get back where I was last summer.

Last Summer

Also last summer

Last summer (again)

AT the start of Nutrisystem in November (above)

Now, here I am at the Zoo.

(This weekend)

The pictures out of focus, but I am sure you can tell....

Somethings gotta give. Nutrisystem offers online support and encouragement, but I really just don't have time to cram much more into my life than I already do. There just isn't enough time in the day. Locomotion of Expressions takes about 8 hours of sitting in the computer chair a day. That sounds exhausting, right? I think, as it gets bigger and I post more and more.. that it is actually the culprit of my weight gain. I can't be at the gym everyday, much as I'd love to, because I am always on here, writing away my life. My butt hurts I sit up here so much. I think I am going to have to stop accepting pitches, and get more focused on being healthy.  For now.. signing off. To go to the gym. *sighs*

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